Coming of Age in the Aquarian

Solar Plexus / Heart

Journal Entry Date: 12 Mar 2004

Thought for the Day: 'who will enjoy looking at you when there is no flesh on your bones?" --Old Age, verse 149 (Crosweller, Buddhist Wisdom Daily Reflections)

Thank you, Lord, for problem at work fixed.

Brought to eye/mind today:
>Kit the cat sitting at the top of the stairs with the light behind her; she's outlined in light.
>Medit: Image or concept in mind the last few months (associated with the solar plexus/heart chakras) of two roughly spherical shapes with foci inside each. The foci appear to be situated near the outer walls. The two foci are attempting to be in contact with each other and are drawn together so strongly that it deforms the surfaces of the spheres. If you drew a circle around the foci, the contents would resemble the yin-yang symbol. Today see the spherical areas as red, living, veined vacuoles lined with transparent or translucent membranes. I'm seeing it as a 3-dimensional work with the vacuoles being sliced along the normal plane and the membranes extending further--above the normal--and curved. A picture is below.

Journal:
>At work my boss talked about the history of the American West and the Mormons' psy-war against the U.S.Army.
>Veged out on the couch this PM.

It Always Comes Back to Balance

Journal Entry Date: 11 Mar 2004

Thought for the Day: It's a fact of life: When you're concentrating on the details, the bigger picture is lost--and vice versa. As usual, the trick is to balance the two.

Thank you, Lord, for new glass frames that function correctly.

Brought to eye/mind today: Odd smiles, ravens

Journal:
>Stayed home sick yesterday.
>Reading about art theory

3 Mar 2004

No Entry

Q-Factor

Journal Entry Date: 9 Mar 2004

Thought for the Day: Expecting, desiring, and expressing strong emotional reactions is not necessarily a sign of being alive; it may be one of the world's traps.

Thank you, Lord, for class done (I have work to do).

Brought to eye/mind today: Q-Factor

Journal:
>Hrunting: LAN nogo

Expecting Failure, Finding Doom

Journal Entry Date: 8 Mar 2004

Thought for the Day: Face what you fear, fear what you face, in all things find that delicate balance.

Thank you, Lord, Pavilion--named Hrunting--working.

Brought to eye/mind today: Expecting failure, finding doom.

Journal:
>Work in progress ("Beyond Biology") to Vortex 2 (Mind/Consciousness). (Yes, but what does it mean?)
>Heart with progressed consciousness is the goal.
>Up late setting up Hrunting.

"Looks Presidential"

Journal Entry Date: 7 Mar 2004

Thought for the Day: "Remember the body is not real. If you focus on this you will overcome temptations and break this cycle of birth and death." --Flowers, verse 46 (Crossweller, Buddhist Wisdom Daily Reflections)
NOTE: This say mind controls all. Also, birth-death is like a vicious circle.

Thank you, Lord, for a new toothbrush.

Brought to eye/mind today:
>The phrase--"look presidential"--in TIME magazine. In others words the candidates don't necessarily have to be presidential, just look presidential.

Journal:
>Medit: Working on a second fiber piece, one for the show next year--a combination of optic fiber, cloth fiber and parabolic reflectors (plastic eggshells mirrored on their inner surfaces).
>Considering replacing the cotton lawn in the piece recently shown with many layers of cheesecloth, randomly oriented.
>While sitting at desk, visualized glasses frames being replaced.
>Success-sharing bonus received.
>Painted for a short while today.

Just Didn't Want to Watch It

Journal Entry Date: 6 Mar 2004

Thought for the Day: When I'm out of balance, like an unbalanced wheel, I wander off my chosen course and it takes a strong effort to get back again.

Thank you, Lord, for the bathroom rugs finally washed.

Brought to eye/mind today:
>Pictures at Chandra--http://chandra.harvard.edu/.
Especially caught by this one--Another Chandra pic (which a co-worker has as a desktop image.
>Mentally working on a new work "Beauty Sleeps," which sprang from a photo published in TIME magazine of the face of a young black child, dead and half-covered with sand.

Journal:
>MLF selected the movie "Frailty" as his choice for this week. I didn't want to watch it, so excused myself. Just didn't want to watch it.

More Ravens

Journal Entry Date: 5 Mar 2004

Thought for the Day: "In the noble eightfold path, what is Right Concentration? To be free of desire and not to allow the torment of the mind to have any effect. To be in that secluded place where there is true awareness of joy and happiness. This is the first level of concentration." --Digha Nikaya (Crosweller, Buddhist Wisdom Daily Reflections)

Thank you, Lord, for my work being shown.

Brought to eye/mind today: Ravens overhead and in an artwork seen.

Journal:
>JW and problems with logging onto Aspen.
>First Friday and saw some interesting work.
>Working on painting called "Beyond Biology"--idea of using 101010 and framing body of work with CRT shape. Decided not.

Heavy Snow

Journal Entry Date: 4 Mar 2004

Thought for the Day: I am what I choose to be. What do I choose?

Thank you, Lord, for a good shit.

Brought to eye/mind today: Heavy snow.

Journal:
>Bonus at work much smaller than that of others. Tthe head of my department asked me about it and is checking into it.
>Called about the replacement frames I requested for my new glasses; the ones I have are faulty at the left hinge. Replacement not ordered.

A Questioning Raven

Journal Entry Date: 03 Mar 2004

Thought for the Day: What you play in your mind manifests in one form or another in the world in which humans live, reputedly the "real" world. Be clear, be free.

Thank you, Lord, for my artpiece being included in the show.

Brought to eye/mind today: A raven flying overhead, sounding a question.

Journal:
>My first piece (done since returning to art work) to be shown, is being displayed at Alaska Pacific University.
>Pyramid Computer says the motherboard in the Pavilion is fried.
>Attended a meeting at work which applied little to what I'm working on. An hour spent trying to figure out what they were discussing.

Title: Light Occulted,
mixed media with an overlay of lawn (fabric).

Comfortable Old Clothes May Be Too Comfortable

Journal Entry Date: 2 Mar 2004

Thought for the Day: A horizon indicates earth separate from heaven and a dichotomy.

Thank you, Lord, for comfortable old clothes.

Brought to eye/mind today: A man's eagerness to connect.

Journal:
>Checked out John Powell's music online and ended up questioning buying more CDs, especially since I don't listen much to the ones I have. Also, considering getting an MP-3 player.

Infinite Variations

Journal Entry Date: 1 Mar 2004

Thought for the Day: Honor the earth for its fruits, of which you are one.

Thank you, Lord, for a possibility.

Brought to eye/mind today: Infinite variations, especially in quilts and pop art.

Journal:
>Took my fabric piece to Mary at Color Creek Fiber Art for inclusion in the Fiber Art show. What she's working with are quilts, but she referred me to someone who might be interested in my piece. She called Pat.
>Pat wanted to see a picture, so spent the evening photographing and processing images to email.

Kit's (our cat's) Company

Journal Entry Date: 29 Feb 2004

Thought for the Day: Being in the dark can be looking into one's own shadow. Turn and be in the light.

Thank you, Lord, for Kit's quiet and calm company.

Brought to eye/mind today: Reviewing art through the ages and attention caught by the artist's sagging stockings in "Artist in his Studio" by Vermeer.

Journal:
>Looked through my books on art, trying to find the artist that one of the figures in Van Gogh's "Arena at Arles" reminds me of.
>Painted for about an hour.
>Not feeling well today, tired.

"You have friends."

Journal Entry Date: 28 Feb 2004

Thought for the Day: In choosing your way, choose the path that benefits the greater number of people. Remember to include yourself.

Thank you, Lord, for friendly words from John, when I encountered him in the store.

Brought to eye/mind today: "You have friends."

Journal:
>Thinking about Stargate and Sam's new relationship and how happy she looked and sincerely into it (It is, after all, a fiction.).
>Realizing how I always have more tasks than time now.
>Playing Freecell too much.
>At CompUSA looked at the G5 (it has a Linux operating system). What a beauty, but what does beauty have to do with how a computer works and does what you want it to do?

Eveningstar Lane

Journal Entry Date: 27 Feb 2004

Thought for the Day: "Meditation leads you to wisdom. No meditation leaves you where you are. Make up your mind where you would rather be." --The Right Way, verse 282 (Crosweller, Buddhist Wisdom Daily Reflections)

Thank you, Lord, for the internet's info.

Brought to eye/mind today: Saw a license plate "EVNSTR" and it took me back to living on Eveningstar Lane and reaching for owning a home in unhappy, chaotic times, that were in some ways joyous, as well.

Journal:
>Forgot the Hierarchy attunement exercise again.
>Reading Kandinsky biography; started checking out his fellow artists online.

What Girl Learning Music?

Journal Entry Date: 26 Feb 2004

Thought for the Day: "Wherever an enlightened being lives, be it in a village or forest, on a mountain or in a valley, it will be known as a holy place and, regardless of the environment, he or she will be at peace and experience only joy." --The Enlightened One, verses 98 & 99 (Crosweller, Buddhist Wisdom Daily Reflections)

Thank you, Lord, for ways opening in traffic.

Brought to eye/mind today: Encountered acronym CID two times--could be circuit ID or Criminal Investigative Division.

Journal:
>Mentally spending bonus for a new bed, half a new easy chair (other half by MLF), and some ultrasuede.
>Problems with new glasses.
>A girl learning music??? (Sometimes my notes are just too cryptic.)

Third Revelation

Journal Entry Date: 25 Feb 2004

Thought for the Day: As the tides ebb and flow, and the sun's light diminishes and increases throughout the year, so one's life is ever-changing.

Thank you, Lord, for a spirit of inquiry.

Brought to eye/mind today:
>Meditation: Saw my mouth moving as if I were speaking; a painting of a green wall heavily worked with gold light slanted across it, left to right, and lovers embracing in the sublayer(s).
>Came across a two-word phrase--"third revelation"--in two different types of sources.

Journal:
>Received word at work that bonuses will be distributed. It's not clear whether I qualify.
>Bought a book, THEORIES OF ART, Vol.3, because it mentions the "third revelation"--a phrase in the Kandinsky biography I'm reading.

"Nectar of Spiritual Joy"

Journal Entry Date: 24 Feb 2004

Thought for the Day: Sometimes the best you can do is hand the job off to someone else.

Thank you, Lord, for light in the morning and longer days.

Brought to eye/mind today: Came across the phrase "nectar of spiritual joy."

Journal:
>My creature in the game Black & White--a seemingly innocuous orangutan--ate the people I was trying to save.
>Took the rebuilt Pavilion, its name is Hrunting, to Pyramid Computer Services for them to trouble-shoot and fix. They quoted a price of $200.00, which is about what I figured.